Today's subject is: Truth.
The first thing I thought was:
"The truth is I'm dog tired."
No one wants to read about that. I switched to my blog hop entry to #FF everyone who linked up their Twitter, but at the back of my mind was a little something. An itch, an idea, thoughts. Pesky, but sometimes THOSE can't be ignored.
Those little sprouting weeds of thoughts you try to brush away, but like weeds they grow and GROW and GROW and BLOOM and sometimes just take over the once-beautiful garden of your brain.
Truth has meant different things to me in my life. There was the obvious truth, the truth I would say, the truth I would admit to myself, and THEN the actual truth. It took me years of counseling to figure out what my REAL thoughts were, to get down to them, and to allow myself to actually FEEL those feelings, and admit the TRUTH of my thoughts.
That's deeper than I can get into in 5 minutes, but a quick example that I was called out on, was from a good friend with whom I have had a tumultuous relationship. I do love how she calls me out on the "Truth" though.
I used to say and think that I believed that I didn't care what other people thought about me. To some extend that's true, there is a great quote from Charles Barkley that I know have somewhere on my computer, I'll share it at the end, and it's really funny, but it's not entirely the TRUTH.
If I didn't care what people thought about me, why would I change my clothes before I left the house? Why wouldn't I just wear maternity mumus all day, every day? Why would I buy face powder?
Why would I write a blog? Why would I go back to the misspelled words and correct them? *I* know what I meant.
I also read others' blogs and while I don't always agree 100% with people, I like to hear other peoples' opinions on things. Especially when we disagree. WHY do people feel that way? Do they explain? Do they have a good reason? Will they convince me? I am always willing to learn, and hear a different opinion, especially well written!
If I didn't care what other people thought, why wouldn't I just write letters to myself on my laptop? And oh, I do that, but evidently I do need other people feedback based on the over 50 posts in my not-yet-year-old blog that I actually hit the "Publish" button, to share with OTHER PEOPLE. Because I do care, I do need feedback, I do need opinions. I do need people. I do care.
Unless you're going to judge me on my extra weight, ugly comfortable shoes, or my very messy house.
Those are my choices, while I may have tried to make excuses for those things in the past, those are choices I have made on my time management and I don't regret. Not for a minute! And THAT is the TRUTH. Time's up!
I do love me some brown mound of rebound!